The reason for the season?

Sometimes I get so frustrated with people and even, dare I say Christmas? This is the most wonderful time of the year and it is filled with joy and giving and love, but for who and what? I read peoples blogs and posts and comments that are so all about Jesus, but for just this time of year? Or maybe just that moment out of the day? Or maybe just when it works for them? I am tired of the lack of love or care for our Savior. Now I know I am not perfect, I see that so clearly everyday, yet I know I either love the Lord or I don't, I am not going to pretend to when it works for me, or tell some nice stories of Him. If I am going to love Him then I am going to try to live in a way that is pleasing to Him. I will never be perfect at this and I fail so much at most attempts, but I am steadfast at digging in to becoming more like Him. This is the season for giving and sharing and loving, but for Christs sake, not for our own. We shouldn't just tell stories, but actually look inside our own hearts and see what the stories even matter to us.

Almost a year!

Wow, we are coming up on Jay's first birthday. A whole year has passed since our little man came into the world and it is strange to even think of what it was like before him. Although at times I do miss the freedom, I would never change having him in our life. Everyday he is doing something new and cute. Lately he has been getting his own little attitude. I don't know how to stop it, but I know that it is going to require a huge amount of patience on my part! How do I give someone so little an attitude adjustment? I look at him and say sweetly, "Jay stop screaming at Mommy, that is a bad thing," really I want to yell at him and say, "who do you think you are?!!! I am your mother and going thru pregnancy and labor is just to close to my memory for you to already be taking advantage of me like this!!" -Ohh the Joys!! 

Boo at the Zoo

We went to Boo at the Zoo with Nathan and Melody Aylestock and their little boy Davis who is almost exactly 5 months younger than Jay. We had so much fun. Davis was a dog and Jay a dinosaur. They both enjoyed trick or treating, Jay especially loved roasting marshmallows!!

pictures from fall

Apple Picking in NC

The picture on the top is one that I got when he was shrugging his shoulders! I told you I would get one! The second one does not look like much, but Davon took it right after Jay had a bee in his mouth. This was so far the first time when I have had to step in as a mother and without thinking of myself take care of Jay. I am terrified of bees, I am really allergic, and for some reason have a major phobia. The first time I was stung by a bee was my first day of kindergarten. You can imagine how that was traumatic! Well Jay was on Daddy's back in the pack and all of the sudden starting screaming crying. I went over to make sure he was ok, assuming he was just sick of not getting attention and in my poor boy's mouth was a yellow jacket. I quickly scooped in out, Davon took off the pack and I took Jay out and comforted him right away. He calmed down in my arms almost immediately (its amazing how a mother can have that affect on her child). Right after he calmed down he wanted to get down and sit in the grass! So I let him. He sat there wanting to play and I kept wanting to kiss him and hold him and make sure he was all right. Its hard how they grow up so fast. Just a few months ago he would have let me rock him and hold him, now he was on the ground doing his own thing and literally pushing me away!!

a start

Life is so interesting, always changing, always growing. Jay amazes me everyday as he learns new things. Just today he has started to shrug his shoulders, like he is saying to me "whatever mom." Can they actually have that thought? How can such a little being have such a huge personality already? He is in most ways just like Davon, laid back, sweet, smiley, always wanting to do his own thing. But recently, I have been coming out in his personality, when he gets mad or frustrated, he clenches his fists and stiffens up and yells. Wow- at 10 months- already an attitude. What happened to just a few months ago when all I got were glimpes of a smile in between long naps. Now its all noise and all smiles! I love how he is changing, but at the same time it scares me. God has put a lot into Davon and my hands and now we have to raise him to be a man of God. It encourages me everyday to walk with the Lord more and more. Jay more than anyone we will ever meet, will learn from our example! Thats huge. 

This blogging is all new to me, hope you all as my friends and family enjoy the post and the pictures....maybe I can get one of him yelling at me so you can see for yourself. Right now he is sleeping though ...Praise the Lord!!!