many roles of a mom

In my discipleship group we have been talking about spiritual gifts and if we are using ours, especially when we are all stay at home moms and spend all waking hours with our children. This is a hard thing for me to answer. I believe that the proverbs wife, and the wife referred to in Titus all are home ministries. After all, it really is the wife that runs the household right?! So yes, this is a job, and the most important. So is that myself, or am I losing myself? I keep trying to make myself into some super mom I think. I try to will it up myself.

The playful mom: one that always play with her kids instead of checking email, watching tv, or checking facebook (yeah right, thats what I want people to believe, but it actuality, I am blogging while Jay is watching curious george?!).

The crafty mom: one that is always working on projects with the kids, teaching them new things about the world around us, always knitting something new, or coming up with some cool project.

The stylish mom: one that always looks cute and trendy, not your typical mom jeans/ denim skirt.

a chef mom: one that is always coming up with new ideas of what to cook or bake, and because of this my kids will always be wonderful eaters (this is drenched with sarcasm).

the volunteer mom: one that is active in the community around me, and my church. Always ready to help where ever its needed. Teenagers love me and want to be around me and my family.

So many roles I feel like i need to fill. But in all of this am I working for man, or for God? I think that the answer is plain as day. I think that facebook gives an unrealistic picture of moms, its yourself writing what good things you can think of (for the most part). Can we be honest and say that we fall short a lot? Or at least I do? I am trying to will myself to play all these roles. So what role does God want me to play, and in that am I using the spiritual gifts that God has equipped me with? I think that this is the hardest thing for me as a stay at home mom. How about you?

Sleep....

All day yesterday Miles had a fever, from 101 to 103. So I anticipated a loooonng night with him. I put him to bet at 7:30 after giving tylenol around 5pm. He went to sleep without a peep. At around 11 Davon and I hear him saying "mama, mama". Davon goes in to check and says he is burning up. Fever was 103, yet this kid was not crying, but smiling and laughing. We gave him ice water, tylenol and kissed him, in turn he waved and plainly said "Nigh-Night". Put him down and he woke up at 8 this morning....love this kid.

On the other hand my sabator, Jay, had nightmares all night, waking every hour and a half or so, and even wet the bed. All the while my sick Miles slept.

I love them both. I love miles sleep:) Sorry Jay.

slow down

lately i feel like I have been trying to reach out and make my place here in atlanta and not spend enough time with my boys. I have been making friends and going out, designing playdates (when the one doing the "playing" is the shy one and would rather be home). Trying to get out of the house as much as I can.

I have been also very crabby and short tempered lately. Waking up with a bad attitude vs spending time with the Lord and being ready to take on the day.

Tomorrow I have discipleship in the morning babysitting in the afternoon. Friday busy morning of car stuff and then Bricks at night. So saturday, you are my day for time with my boys, playing at the park riding bikes, whatever is kiddish and fun.

I love having sons, i love they both like to get dirty (it took jay a minute), I love that we can just go play and they can be blissfully happy.

I just had to write this down, in some ways now that I have written I feel like I am being held accountable to step it up as a mother.